I’m sorry…WHAT…?!

The Adam Walsh case has finally been closed.  I am surprisingly overwhelmed with emotion. I was born the month before Adam was in 1974.  I remember, at six years old, seeing Mr. and Mrs. Walsh on tv asking for anyone to step forward.  I didn’t understand really what was going on, but I also remember when they found part of Adam (his head) in the next town over.  I also remember thinking at some point, when I was shopping with my mom that I wanted to be sure to stay with her because I didn’t want to end up like Adam Walsh.  In the back of my mind, I always realized that could have been me.

I don’t know if this was the case for other kids who grew up here in Florida during the same period, but the name ‘Adam Walsh’ has always been synonomous with stay close to my parents when I was with them in a store.  Its interesting how something you can’t understand the true tragedy of when are little can have such a profound impact in what you think and how you act.  As I’ve gotten older, Adam Walsh has always been in the back of my mind. Its odd how you cannot know someone or their family but be affected by their tragedy.

I am so happy the case is finally closed after 27 years. I am sure Adam will always be in the back my mind, but I find myself a bit more relieved that they’ve closed the case and named his killer.  I hope the Walsh family can finally find closure to this devastating event.  I hope that those law enforcement men and women who worked on this case over the last 27 years can find peace.

rachel :: Dec.16.2008 :: Randomly Musing :: No Comments »

Sometimes, I try to remember what it is I wanted to be when I was younger…you know, just to see how close I’ve come thus far.  Here’s the list:

• Wonder Woman (first and foremost!)
• A Nurse
• A Teacher
• An Astronaut…until I saw the Challenger explode (I saw it in the school yard less than 200 miles from Cape Canaveral)
• A Secretary
• A Writer
• Someone who walked around the beach and sold suntan lotion
• A Bikini model
• A Budlight Girl
• A Ballerina until my breasts began to develop and didn’t appear to want to stop developing
• A member of the Dallas Cowboy’s dance corp
• A Mommy
• A Psychiatrist
• A Peace Corp Worker
• An Architect
• A Gypsy
• A Lawyer
• A Choreographer
• I thought a firefighter would be neat, until I babysat for one and realized she was never home
• Ridiculously smart

What I’ve been thus far: Continue Reading »

rachel :: Dec.12.2008 :: Randomly Musing :: No Comments »

Recently, I have been hearing a whole lot of the word “Hate” in every day conversations.  In my humble opinion, hating something should evoke anger.  Yet, we use the word ‘hate’ as an every day word to describe something we don’t like.  Why can’t we just say I really don’t like it, rather than I hate it.  When I hear someone say “I hate [something]” I immediately wonder what type of things they love.  I wonder why their face doesn’t crinkle up in obvious anger about whatever it is they are talking about hating.  I wonder what they would say about someone who killed someone close to them.  See, hate in my opinion is something that should be reserved for things that are horrific, things that conjure up thoughts of homocide, things I really can’t even begin to fathom.

I just looked up the definition of hate: Continue Reading »

rachel :: Dec.09.2008 :: Randomly Musing :: No Comments »

Self Knowledge is the quest for truth. It is the journey of an individual to determine who she is. When beginning this quest, she must assess every life experience singularly, as well as, holistically. She must also be aware of what happens in the world around her to influence her reactions to each experience.

When considering the search for Self Knowledge, one must consider whether this is a public pursuit or a personal pursuit or is there a happy medium between the two? You can not have one without the other if you want to have a comprehensive evaluation of who you truly are, and what elements make that possible. Continue Reading »

rachel :: Apr.24.2008 :: Randomly Musing :: No Comments »

Desire is a deep longing for something a person does not possess. Whether the desire is for more money, more love in our lives, or increased status, human nature dictates that each of us eventually desires something. Unfortunately, we often come close to achieve that which we desire, but fall short in some area. This causes great suffering in most cases.

It is difficult to define the meaning of happiness. It is, however, much easier to observe that most human beings are not at peace within themselves. There is a desire to have more than what they possess. We live in a world where enough is never enough. Each generation grows up being taught that they should have a better material-based life than their parents. The parents are only trying to give their children a life better than they had; yet they don’t realize how this act, or combination of acts, is only hurting their children’s future. “I must own a better vehicle than my parents did,” “I must make more money than my parents did,” and “I must have a better relationship than my parents did.”

These are desires that are ingrained in us from childhood. Often times, these desires lead to feelings of inadequacy, which fester and lead to suffering and never finding the ability to be content in life. Continue Reading »

rachel :: Apr.24.2008 :: Randomly Musing :: No Comments »

I haven’t had any random musings lately.  In fact, I’ve had some rather pointed thoughts about a whole lot of things of no relevance.  wait… what?

Maybe I should randomly muse about things that have been brewing around in this overactive mind of mine, or maybe not.

maybe I’ll just work on having some thoughts that make no damn sense - things that are ridiculous in nature and mean absolutely nothing in the whole scheme of things.

Am I taking life too seriously right now? Is that why I can’t just spew nonsense?

callipygos :: Mar.14.2008 :: Randomly Musing :: No Comments »